Better late then never

Earlier this year as my mom and I browsed one of the bead shows (for way too long) a ring caught my eye. Simple silver band, with Kokopelli under the stars. Until recently, Kokopelli had been largely misunderstood by me. I am not sure how or why, but I was sorely misinformed of his origins as something far worst the actually believed. In seeing that ring I felt a simple attachment and noticed how like me it was. At peace under the stars...music holding it together. Sadly I had spent what money I had so I left it with a smile and a sigh to try and find it later.

Later came right before my birthday. There it was in the small velvet slot waiting as it had been. This time, I had saved money especially for it. So with a smile and a sigh it slipped onto my finger and came home. A silent gift for myself, for a silent reason. A gift for the girl I was.



...without you, everything falls apart...without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces....

Not clear cut

Living on a hill I get some pretty thick fog. And the weather lately has given more then usual



I like the old style iron lamps at our apartments on days like this

A few volts short

Aside from my sister in laws wedding, I haven't picked up my camera in almost a month. Too many things happened in November to make me want to take it out. And with the impending stresses of Christmas, I made myself figure out a few pictures last night when I couldn't sleep.



I broke light bulbs. It's fun to have an excuse to be destructive. I tried really hard to break them just right so it would still work. But no such luck. It was fun enough though.

The answer

Since I took this picture a few days ago, I've wondered what post to make with it. I set about writing different stories for different views of what the picture was saying...but now, I don't really feel like posting them.

Instead, two songs. One softer song, I had picked out this afternoon and one bruding one that now I want added.

How Can I Live Without Her
I know she'll never understand
I gave my word before we met, so I just can't go breaking it
She'll say she thinks I'm out of touch
I've let my duty, honorbound, come between the love we've found

How can I live without her...when she's all I'm livin' for? (I'm livin'
for)
How can I live without her...live like I did before?
Now I can see, through her eyes how good love could be...
How can I live without her, when she's gone?

No matter what the future brings, I'll hold the memories in my heart
No matter how long we're apart.
She'll always be the only one
Her name forever on my lips, she's slipping through my fingertips.

How can I live without her...when she's all I'm livin' for?
I'm livin' for...
How can I live without her...live like I did before?
Now I can see, through her eyes how good love could be...
How can I live without her, when she's gone?

How can I live without her?
How can I live without her?
How can I live without her, when she's gone?
How can I live without her, when she's gone?
She's all I'm livin' for...She's all I'm living for...
How can I live without her?
How can I live like I did before?

How can I live without her?



Sometime's It Hurts
Six o'clock in the morning, my head is ready to explode..I can't believe I made it home alive
I don't remember where I went, or what I was drinking
And now it's made me sick, and I'm not denying that I get this way, when I try to get over you
I get this way, when I try to get over you

Sometimes it hurts, so much to lose the one you love...
Sometimes it hurts, so much to lose the one you love...

I tried so hard to hate you, but it only makes it all worse...I only end up hating myself
And as my hatred grows so do the lies, it's hard to face the truth sometimes
God I feel so useless
God I hate myself...when I try to get over you
I hate myself...will I ever get over you

Sometimes it hurts, so much to lose the one you love...
Sometimes it hurts, so much to lose the one you love...

And after all this time you'd think I'd understand the way you feel
But no...
I only think about myself
And it's driving you away, I always knew it would one day

Sometimes it hurts, so much to lose the one you love...
Sometimes it hurts, so much to lose the one you love...
Sometimes it hurts, so much to lose the one you love...
Sometimes it hurts, so much to lose the one you love...

If you don't get it...then any other words won't help.